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 %COLLUDE BLOCK LEARN MISTAKE ERROR FAILURE TRAGEDY+940910
  %TRUE SELF OTHER EXPERIENCE AFFECT EMOTION DECIDE+940910
  %ACTION HELL SINS DISINTEGRATIVE IDEAL VALUE GOAL+940910
%NOT BECOME AWARE CONSCIOUS KNOWLEDGEABLE EVIL GOOD 940910

     If we never become  aware  of the connections between
disintegrative ideals,  values, goals and principles---and
the objective,  affective and emotional consequences which
flow from them through our decisions and actions---then we
are  blocked  from learning  anything from  our  mistakes,
errors, failures and  tragedies.   We repeat mistakes over
and over again.

     If  we are participant-victims in collusive games  of
mutual   self  deception---in the manner  of  addicts  and
their   codependent  supporters---then  we  often  require
ourselves  and  each  other not  to become  aware  of  the
connections  indicated  above.    To become aware of  such
connections    is   to   threaten   the   appearance    of
integrity/coherence in our collusive games of mutual  self
deception.   Dishonesty and disintegration are regarded as
reasonable  prices  to pay to assure the  concealment  and
continuation of the non-existent games of appearing  to be
worthy of respect.

     If  we  require  ourselves  to  be  unaware  of   the
connections  indicated   above,  and  are  successful   in
fulfilling  our  requirements, then  we need  not  repress
the awareness  of  connections---because   the connections
never  reaches  the  level   of conscious thought.   There
is a  sense  in which those insights, attitudes, emotions,
perceptions  and revelations which do not  reach the level
of   conscious  thought---are  not  repressed;   they  are
suppressed to the point of not being real, realized.  Then
they cannot be repressed.

     If  our  collusions require of us that we not  become
aware of the consequences of our collusive games of mutual
self  deception, then we cannot be true to ourselves about
what our own experiences,  emotions and perceptions are---
we cannot be aware of them,  name them,  describe them  or
talk  about  them with anybody.   We are the  living  dead
persisting  in  hell,  alienated from  ourselves and  each
other---worshiping  our  collusive games  of  mutual  self
deception as dishonest isolators.

                                                                                                                               
                         (c) 2005 by Paul A. Smith in      
                    (On Being Yourself, Whole and Healthy)  
                                                                                                                               
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